Its not a question. Its a statement. I am not trying to ask why serving is not fun, I am trying to point out why we can't see serving as something fun. So many times in the past I have been holding on to the idea that serving is something extra to do, adding on to the things that we already do daily. I think I am viewing it in a totally different prospect than what God wants me to view it.
Why all the fear about going to the China mission trip? So what if my chinese is not good? God doesn't just use words to do everything. Serving is something I want to look forward to everyday. I wanna have that enthusiasm, where i just can't wait to serve!
I've been looking at the mission trip quite negatively the past few days. I keep asking myself "If my language is not good how on earth am I gonna even start a conversation with them, let alone share the gospel. And if I cant share, then I am letting God down, no?"
BADBADBAD! I wanna throw away those thoughts! It is through our weaknesses that God's strength can be shown! I wanna be happy, about the fact that I am actually going overseas on a mission where God is the focus of it! I don't understand why I feel so stressed about it, I should be feeling happy, afterall, God is leading me, right? But I just know something awesome will happen there, I just can't wait to find out! Maybe its time to change my mindset! Maybe this is just what I needed, to really test myself if I will rely on God with my whole heart and let him take control, or just continue worrying about the things that I can't do.
And I tell you, I will surely go for the first one.
I remember going for the national day prayer meeting conducted by Pastor Daniel. He said "It is not by chance or luck that you are here. You are here for a reason. Even though you are here because your leaders or your friends ask you to come, you are here right now. And it is not by chance." Maybe I should put this in my context?
It is not by chance I am going for the china trip. There is a reason behind it!
