Yeah. 14 weeks have passed since i got here. And I haven't kept my promise. I didn't even blog a sing bit. Not even a whisper.
Well, life goes on. I really love it here, and that's the truth. Everything here is perfect. The people, polite. The environment, beautiful. The lifestyle, relaxed. This is what I always have longed for... or not?
I don't know. There's still this hole. Something's missing. My family. My lifegroup. My friends, and most importantly, my God. I don't know. I think I could have done so much better in terms of my spiritual walk. I fell I haven't done enough. Yes I go to the church every Sunday.
But going to church does not make you a Christian.
I mean, I really had dreams. Not dreams from the world, but from God. Where has that gone? Have I distanced myself that far from God? Am i chasing the world, or am I chasing after the heartbeat of God? Something I should really reflect on.
I am not saying that, 'oh this trip was a mistake'. Hell no! I believe this trip was from God, but I did not rely on God on my daily decisions. I feel that I am just doing it all on my on strength. Maybe its time for a change. A radical one.
I will really miss life here. It's just so.. peaceful. I thank God for this 5 months. You know, even though I haven't been as faithful to God as I should have, God has never let me down. He has always been providing me with everything I need, and even more. I have so many testimonies to tell.
If anyone in my lifegroup is reading this, I have something to tell you! Thank you. For everything. Really. You are the best. I love each and every one of you and I want to give everyone hugs right now! :)
Credits to Kenneth Ng for the amazing photo above.
